Question posted to Orlando on The Shaman's Rattle:  How do our fears stop us?  What about "contracts" I have made with myself in the past that are no longer valid? 

It is important to realize that reality is self-created, and so your fears are both founded and unfounded, depending entirely on your Intent and especially upon your Intent as it relates to your Intent.  And though that may appear on the surface to be a simple or even obvious statement, there are levels of understanding which will reveal themselves to you through meditation over a longer period of time.

The experience of 'burning out' is common to many warriors, and indeed it seems that one must exhaust all reasonable avenues of exploration before finally coming to see that the path toward evolution is neither reasonable nor particularly easy.  It need not be difficult in and of itself, yet the difficulty arises in the phase of burn-out - and the hardest part of the journey is the Intent to keep moving forward even when it seems every road comes to an abrupt and irreversible dead-end.

This is the shaman's madness, the sorcerer's trick, the witch's conundrum.  This is where the real work begins, or ends, depending entirely on the will of the warrior.  Having come to the end of the road - more than once, more than twice, more than ten times - does the warrior have the accumulation of personal power required to begin forging her own road, or does she succumb to the fear and the "evidence" which seems to indicate that there are no answers and the universe is little more than a random canvas of comets and fallen leaves and dinosaur bones? 

Whatever "contracts" you have sworn are only as binding as the force of your True Intent as it exists within the "structure" of your double - the higher self, the infinite self beyond the boundaries of the space/time continuum.  And here it is important to realize that passing wishes or avowals sworn in anger or fear really have no lasting effect unless the warrior attaches to them through fear or True Intent.  So it is not really necessary to revoke past "contracts" as your own intent and personal power evolve and strengthen.  The Now supercedes all our yesterdays and all our tomorrows, and it is only in the raw Now that Intent can manifest, for that is the milieu of the mortal self with regard to perception and action.

It is also important to truly understand the nature of Intent.  More than a passive or passing wish or desire, it is the force of creative energy within the warrior which literally rearranges possibility into probability.  And it is the invocation of the will which then takes probability and forces it to go through the motions of actually occurring, in alignment with the visions of one's True Intent.  So it is what you truly intend for yourself that overrides and supercedes all temporal wishes - often in ways that may appear at the time to be in direct conflict what what you believe you want at the time, but in the larger scope of things, are simply your own Intent manifesting in ways you cannot predict or even accurately see from within the linear mortal timeframe.

The only real path is the one that leads from your heart and into the infinite.  How it manifests and what strange twists and turns it may take through brambled woods or barren deserts, is entirely a matter of how you go about forcing this deep-seated Intent to go through the motions of actually occurring.  You are creating reality, in such a way that it must lead through the ghettoes in order to reach the stars - and this is as it must be for you, for reasons which only you and your double may know.  You cannot fail in the path, for you are the path if that is your Intent.  Thou art god.  Create yourself accordingly.

Orlando - July 9, 2005

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